content? who knows.
Feeling kind of satisfied, but yet sub par. Still realising that change happens as it pleases, and only a few joys can really be permanent. More often momentary and timeless. Oddly enough I’m okay with that. I’ve never been one to shy away from change too much, unless it comes to people. Which is now my current problem that is somewhat infuriating but i’ll wait it out I reckon....
change in the wind
Feeling a real genuine change in my life for the better. I am honestly happy almost all the time now. Got a brand new good paying job, having wonderful times with my boyfriend, gaining back old friends and even a few new ones! I hope this doesn’t end.
made a big ol' mess of things.
I don’t want to go back or even change that much of what happened. I wish I had a better frame of mind, I wish I knew what I wanted. I wish I knew what would be best for us, but I don’t. I want you to be happy, as well as myself. So maybe I’ll just let you decide for both of us, if one of us doesn’t want it whats the point. You don’t seem as into it anymore. I wonder...
desperately wanting to see the perks of being a...
my boyfie logan lerman is in it, bet he’s missing me! In more seriously, I’m having a hard time adjusting to well, so much time. I even read now, up to my second book. I can’t imagine having a year of this. I’m also very quickly realising who my real friends are and aren’t, and I’m coming to a point where I’ve moved past the nostalgic stage of realising...
Some days I feel like a lost cause of being cheered up. Where not even my favourite bands or tv shows will make me happy. That day has been the last 18. I’m so over isolation and people who forget about my existence because I can’t go out and see them. And fucking reading, right now I’d rather be blind then have to keep studying, and the only thing that makes me more mad is if I...
watching the notebook and wishing my life was half...
Why am I still doing this to myself. My god, I have no idea what I’m doing.
ONE EXAM DOWN, FEELIN' GEEEEEWD
The thought of upcoming exams is crushing my soul, especially because on top of everything my support system just shat itself. I just need a real escape and someone reliable in my life, I’m over people side stepping shit and talking crap and lying. Can’t say im not innocent of talking crap, but atleast i’ve got some evidence to back my accusations up. Despite the pressure...
just don't even know.
I am lost and everyone isn’t helping. Except mumford and sons, cause they always help. They are magic.