forever young

content? who knows.

Sat, 20 Apr 2013 07:36:00 -0400

Feeling kind of satisfied, but yet sub par. Still realising that change happens as it pleases, and only a few joys can really be permanent. More often momentary and timeless. Oddly enough I’m okay with that. I’ve never been one to shy away from change too much, unless it comes to people. Which is now my current problem that is somewhat infuriating but i’ll wait it out I reckon. Though waiting is one of my poorer traits. So I’ll just be here sitting, waiting.. waiting for more change.

My small vent can now be redeemed by the fact that I have the most wonderful boyfriend in the world. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever be ready for that to change..

take me there

Sat, 20 Apr 2013 07:25:51 -0400

take me there

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Sat, 20 Apr 2013 04:12:10 -0400

artpixie: (by Laura Manfre)

Sat, 20 Apr 2013 04:02:47 -0400

artpixie:

(by Laura Manfre)

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Sun, 14 Apr 2013 02:28:38 -0400

change in the wind

Sun, 14 Apr 2013 01:49:12 -0400

Feeling a real genuine change in my life for the better. I am honestly happy almost all the time now. Got a brand new good paying job, having wonderful times with my boyfriend, gaining back old friends and even a few new ones!

I hope this doesn’t end.

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Sun, 14 Apr 2013 01:47:15 -0400

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Thu, 06 Dec 2012 06:25:58 -0500

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Thu, 06 Dec 2012 06:25:40 -0500

made a big ol' mess of things.

Sun, 02 Dec 2012 07:16:00 -0500

I don’t want to go back or even change that much of what happened. I wish I had a better frame of mind, I wish I knew what I wanted. I wish I knew what would be best for us, but I don’t. I want you to be happy, as well as myself. So maybe I’ll just let you decide for both of us, if one of us doesn’t want it whats the point. You don’t seem as into it anymore. I wonder if this is normal or if were just horrible at this. But I love you, but maybe love isn’t enough sometimes. Maybe this is a situation where the greater good and good intentions triumph over love. Where the mind is finally dominant and the heart is put into submission, leaving a logical answer. I just want to feel like me again, but I can’t imagine that being without you. I am totally lost and feel like I can’t make a decision.

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Sun, 02 Dec 2012 07:09:49 -0500

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Sun, 02 Dec 2012 07:07:47 -0500

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Sun, 02 Dec 2012 06:24:03 -0500

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Sun, 02 Dec 2012 01:04:16 -0500

desperately wanting to see the perks of being a wallflower

Thu, 29 Nov 2012 08:13:00 -0500

my boyfie logan lerman is in it, bet he’s missing me!
In more seriously, I’m having a hard time adjusting to well, so much time. I even read now, up to my second book. I can’t imagine having a year of this. I’m also very quickly realising who my real friends are and aren’t, and I’m coming to a point where I’ve moved past the nostalgic stage of realising that missing them ruins my day. I’m in a good place with people gradually. Almost sad I’m leaving for 3 weeks, but with my fuck all shift, I’m keen to have a ridiculously good time in Tahiti, though we don’t have airconditioning. But it’s okay, cause it’s in a villa above the beach water. So worst comes to worst I’m midnight swimming in the ocean. Fucking tough life I’ll be having. My facebook will finally look like I do stuff with my life hahha, that alone has to be good.

I’m also marvelling in the fact that I have a pool, holy shit this summer would suck without one. My lordy!

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Mon, 26 Nov 2012 20:28:35 -0500

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